Another year is over Darling Sheila. It's five years today since you left me and things are just as hard as ever. It sometimes frightens me because I don't know when this pain is going to end. Will it ever? The only thing that makes me feel better is that it's not you that's going through this devastation. I wouldn't wish it on anyone let alone you. It's unbearable sometimes. If I could just see you for five minutes to hug you and tell you I'm sorry and that I miss you - I'd give anything to see you. "Oh for the touch on your vanished hand and the sound of your voice which is still." that expresses it word for word how I feel. All my love darling Sheila now and forever.